01/01/2020
2019 was the worst year of my adult life.
This time last year, 2019 was looking like it was going to be a great year. I had landed a full-time touring gig for Brainstorm, educating kids on respect, anger management and healthy relationships.
It was a chance for me to stretch myself as I had to learn all these new skills.
Although the show was very rewarding as the themes in the show were eerily similar to the horrors I had endured in my teenage years. I really felt I was helping make a difference to these kids lives and it was very personal to me, but I was subjected to the same disrespect, bullying and abuse that I was trying to teach kids was not acceptable. I was forced to compromise on what I thought was right and ultimately on who I am as a person.
This job, that I had once described as a dream come true had ended up being toxic.
As a result it heavily affected my personal life.
I owe my remaining sanity largely to Dodgeball. It has been my rock and has become so important to me over the course of this year. The community is so diverse and welcoming. I would like to thank the Dream Eaters Dodgeball club for being the highlight of my year. I am so proud of you all. 💜
I want to apologise to my friends and family for not being present, and to my partner for putting up with the monster I have become.
The silver lining is what I have learned.
I have learned that I am not as good at communicating as I thought I was, and I am often misunderstood. I have also found a passion for ethical living and plant based eating. 🌱
Moving forward to 2020 I will no longer compromise on what I think is right to make things easy, or to keep the peace. I will be the thorn in the side of anyone who treats others as less or different.
I will no longer look or present myself in a way that I think others want.
If these things make me seem like an as***le, so be it.
Too long didn’t read: 2019 sucked, I will make 2020 better.
