11/12/2023
Growth. It comes in many forms. At a whopping 4 feet and 11 inches, physical growth was never in the cards for me. If personal growth could be measured in feet and inches though, I would be at least 7 feet tall by now. I spent almost the entirety of this weekend sitting alone in my house, crafting while watching 'New Amsterdam" (highly recommend by the way-just may be the new Grays Anatomy). 10 years ago, 5 years ago, even 2 years ago I would have done anything to avoid being alone in my house with my thoughts and the sound of quiet. These days, I relish in the quiet and time by myself. Don't get me wrong, I still find loneliness creep in from time to time especially when my kiddos are gone, but overall, I have learned to enjoy being alone. I grew up with my parents and an aunt who has lived with my parents almost their whole marriage, so I was never really alone growing up, and then was married in my early twenties. I never really had the opportunity to learn how to be alone and my personality certainly never had any desire to do so. But then life flipped upside down and I was divorced before I even hit thirty. I had and still have the best support system, so I was never truly alone, but as time has gone on, I have slowly learned to appreciate the things I never would have learned had I not gone through a hellish divorce. I no longer panic and try to fill my time when my kids are gone with people, work and activities. I take the time to rest, reflect and do things that I love, uninterrupted. And sometimes I'm even productive and get lots of things done on my to do list. That's growth. Next time you're alone with your thoughts, do yourself a favor and give yourself recognition for some growth that you have accomplished in your life, big or small. It all matters ❤❤❤
