01/06/2022
« I should be able to... I don’t know why I’m not more... »
When I hear friends judge themselves like that it breaks me inside. Because I have lived with the unfair burden of self blame for most of my life and I wish I could scream this from the rooftops: no! no dear, you couldn’t have. If it was possible then you would have already done it. Don’t blame yourself for « procrastinating » (if you haven’t checked out the book Laziness doesn’t exist » then you should)
I learned the hard way that all the things that I couldn’t « get done already » had very good and valid reasons, but I bypassed then every time I put societies high impossible standards above my own wellbeing.
I’m here to tell you that if you haven’t yet done that thing, changed that habit, or improved whatever last year’s resolution was; you can turn that expectation on its head because achieving whatever you wish for cannot be achieved alone. Nothing successful ever happened in a vacuum or by one person only. We need each other and our connection with good people is what helps us flourish and thrive.
Here’s a personal example: for years after leaving a cult-like community I worked hard on self-love. I knew my capacity for loving my nearest and dearest, and any human really is only as much as I’m willing to love myself. I can’t give compassion to others if I don’t first give myself grace. So I did some practices very diligently to « love myself better » and I went from hating myself and absolutely disgusted with myself when I looked into the mirror, to finally being ok with myself, & liking myself.
What do you think helped me introduce my system to loving myself? No practices in the world could do that for me. It happened when I signed up for my first online mastermind. I met like minded people on a similar journey and when I experienced for the first time he genuine love for who I am and not particularly dependent on what I « do » that’s when everything changed for me. Feeling seen and appreciated for the person that I am, helped me realize I AM loveable. I had no clue before that I didn’t have to work myself rugged helping someone in order
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