16/06/2025
Life lately: Becoming a Mom, Losing & Finding Myself Again 🕊️”
I gave birth to my daughter on April 26, 2025.
While it was a normal delivery, I don’t think anyone prepares you for the intensity of the pain or the lack of rest that follows. These 7 weeks have been the most raw, overwhelming, and transformative weeks of my life.
Everyone around me expected me to become this perfect mom overnight — to master breastfeeding, handle the baby, eat well, rest enough… all while my body was healing. The first two weeks were filled with emotional outbursts I didn’t see coming.
Yes, there was love and care for the baby. But somewhere in the process, I felt invisible. As if my own pain, recovery, and identity no longer mattered the moment I became “the mother.” And it hurt when even close ones (jokingly or not) expected me to “just figure it out.”
No one tells you how hard it is to calm a crying newborn or feed on demand with no prior experience — especially when you don’t have an older sister to look up to who has experienced it earlier.
It felt like I lost the version of me who had her routines, balance, sleep, and a sense of control. I’m still grieving that version of myself… while slowly learning to embrace this new version of me. A softer, more patient version who now knows the value of a 10-minute nap or 15 minutes of focused time.
And that’s changed everything — including the way I want to show up online.
From now on, you’ll see the real, raw side of me. I’m no longer interested in perfect aesthetics or following polished routines. I care about creating meaningful, messy, heart-centered content — documenting what I’m living through, one post at a time.
I’m done with sticking to a niche.
Because I am the niche.
Motherhood. Self love. Restarting my business after 5 years of freelancing. Creative solutions. Emotional growth. Systems and strategies. Identity shifts. That’s what you’ll see here.
And if there’s one thing I’ve learned from these past weeks:
Start before it’s perfect. Start with what you have. Start even if your camera angle sucks. Just start.
This is me, starting again. 🌱
