18/01/2023
I never really understood the phrase with great Power comes great Responsibility until I had to go thru it.
The last 7 Months was playing Nurse to Dad and juggling my Family and Work.
The past 15 days before Dada passed I committed and advertised months in advance to do the Goal Setting Training. And I didn't feel good about cancelling it especially when it involved almost 250 Women Entrepreneurs.
I am grateful to have built a strong Team so I would go in for that one hour of Education and head back and they would ensure that every Meeting was a Success.
And after 7 Months, towards the end it becoming a 24/7 job, today I suddenly feel I have nothing to do 😂 like a large part of my day from monitoring 18-20 tablets, coordinating with the Ward Boy etc etc., and whilst I want to Immerse in Work and divert my mind, I think it's even more important to deal with all these feelings one is going thru and making peace with the could haves, the should haves, the what ifs, the if only and the questions to self of did you do enough, and swinging between he is a better place to wish he was around. Dada and I had a strangely different relationship. To suffering a month with Bronchitis to realize Dada and I have a similar condition...
But in all this I've realized over time that not dealing with emotions in a timely manner have huge repercussions whether it's losing a loved one or heart break or your fears or hurt or whatever those emotions are....
Acknowledge it. Deal with it. Get help to Heal but don't brush it aside by keeping yourself busy with things.
The first 15 days of 2023 had me on a Roller Coaster. A big giant one that makes your tummy churn 😁❤️ But that's life. Never a straight line.
One learns to get help and cope.