10/31/2025
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I was assaulted by my father from an infant, to age 5.
My mom told me, that Iâd chew my fingers until they bled.
She didnât know I was doing it out of fear. It was a cry for help from a baby who couldnât speak. Even still, I loved my dad. I couldnât even sleep in my own bed. I felt safe with him. He was supposed to be my protector, not the monster. My mom did find out and we left. The judge gave him counseling. Not me, not the victims. I still remember missing him and being confused. I became an angry child. At 11, my uncle abused me. I didnât tell because I didnât want my grandma to be sad. As a child, women in my family would blame me for their husbands cheating on them, or start rumors that I was âsleeping around.â Instead of protecting me, they blamed me. This really affects me today. I still canât be around anyoneâs boyfriend/husband, without being terrified that someone will say something about me. So, I avoid men and couples as much as possible. I was assaulted by various people until I was 18. I was sleeping over a friendâs house once, and was assaulted by their dad. This time I did tell, and was kicked out. They blamed me because of my past, and all the rumors. I didnât call the police because if my friends and family didnât believe me, why would they? Later I found out I was 4 months pregnant. I looked into adoption, but my mother wouldnât let me.
In 2010, I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. He kept me going. He knows the truth, I would never keep that from him. He was definitely my Velcro baby. Mine to love and protect. I wonât say it was easy, it was hell sometimes. I would see slivers of his âfatherâ here and there, and it would send me into a spiral. Now I see those slivers, and I know that is my son. Heâs not his âfather,â never will be. In 2013, I met my husband. He has a son a year younger than mine. Not long after, we had our son. It took me so long to feel comfortable in a safe place, with a safe person. He helped me through hell, and I love him beyond words. Now my boys are in high school, youngest in middle school. Itâs been a long journey, but I made it. Iâm writing this in my favorite recliner, cat on my lap, listening to the hustle and bustle of week day mornings, and my dog is napping peacefully after breakfast. I just wanted to tell people that no matter how dark it gets, it does get better. Reading this at 18, I wouldnât believe it. No matter how corny it sounds. It will get better. Donât give up. You matter. And you are deserving of safety and happiness. We live in a gated community now. I lived long in poverty for so long and grew up homeless, with an alcoholic for a mom. Now I have a beautiful home. My own home. I still get chills just saying that, âMy home.â My safe place.
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