09/30/2022
"Before I could meet my husband, I had to stop letting guys treat me like s**t"
God's timing plays into every aspect of our lives, especially our relationships. Before I met my Husband Matt, i did not have healthy perspective on relationships. I used to prioritize them over my family and friends. I would move my schedule around and cancel plans with my family and friends just to spend time with them. All because I didnt want them to think that i wasn't intersted, or that i wasnt giving my all. I never cared about how they were actually treating me. I was seeing the relationship based off of potential and "what ifs" that i was literally creating in my head. I wasnt putting myself first, prioritizing my true relationships or seeing the relationship at face value.
During my year in Australia I spent a lot of time with God thinking about what i actually believed about love, relationships, men, etc. It wasn't until i came back to the States after the pandemic that I finally told God im going to prioritize my relationship with myself, and with my family and friends over the POTENTIAL of being in a relationship with a guy. When i tell you not 3 weeks after i made that decision, that is when i met my Husband?
It took my good friend to tell me, "when are you gonna stop letting guys treat you like s**t". I had to stand up to MYSELF and reflecting on my choices and what red flags in the guy, and MYSELF that I was overlooking. I didnt have to wait as long as I thought I needed to for my husband to find me. I just had to become the person that his Spirit would recognize as his Wife.