08/21/2026
Some days, I sit in front of my laptop for hours and still cannot start.
I stare at the screen.
I open a file.
I close it.
Then I go back to bed and doom scroll.
At midnight, I convince myself that I am finally ready to work.
But then I remember something, walk to the kitchen, and eat. By 5 AM, I realize I need files from other people, so I send a few messages.
While waiting for their replies, I start a completely different task that does not require those files.
I figure things out. I finish one task. Then I go back to bed and scroll again.
Kitchen. Bedroom. Shower. Bed. Phone.
Then I suddenly remember Hubstaff.
Did I stop the timer?
I return to my laptop to check. Once I know it has stopped, I go back to bed and scroll until I fall asleep.
When I wake up, the first thing I do is check my email.
A new idea for a client immediately enters my mind. I send an email, review their documents, and add insights they did not even ask for yet.
That is the confusing part.
I can struggle for hours to begin a task sitting directly in front of me, but the moment my brain finds something interesting, urgent, or helpful, I can suddenly focus.
It is not a lack of care.
It is not laziness.
My brain simply does not move in a straight line.
I am still learning how to work with it instead of spending every day fighting against it.
And maybe that's why I understand many of our neurodivergent clients.
When they forget, get overwhelmed, or jump between ideas, I don't see someone who isn't trying. I see someone whose brain works differently—because mine does too.
As an ADHD Distant Assistant at Alisto, I don't just support their business. I understand the way they work.
