05/27/2026
Full circle moment 💫
I was reading page 11 out loud to the room.
“...I don’t have a plan. Part of that is on purpose and part of that is just not having a clue. What I am sure of is my wants. I want…friends made by me and not inherited by Sean. I want to be creative. I want to make a difference somehow. The details are to be determined. Amanda TBD.”
When I looked up from the pages, tears immediately fell. I was confronted with past and present Amanda all in one moment. I remembered writing these words and how I felt so lost. Then seeing all the faces in the room looking at me, engaged in my words, it hit me. They represent that commitment to the free fall. I explained why the tears,”You ARE my TBD.” It was an emotional moment. Especially with my daughter, son, husband, mother and mother-in-law in the seats to witness it. I will always remember it 💗
Giving personal testimony in a room full of love is exactly why I wanted to resurface my book. The preamble to it all. The moment of the ultimate life shift, even pre-covid, and I decided to document each day. I’m so glad I did.
After the reading, we discussed life after the book. Truths I’ve never shared publicly. The whole room wanted this to be book #2, but I’m not sure I have it in me to write another one any time soon. But it was fun to relive and say some of those things out loud. The laughter felt like such a release too.
Thank you to those who came and everyone who couldn’t make it. You’ve held me up over the years. I also appreciate the recent spike in book sales 👀 Please leave me a review and let me know what you think. I’d love to post on IG account.
🔗If you’d like to purchase a book, the link is in my bio or you can head to in North Portland to get one too. Thank you Lauren 🙏🏽
Special shout out to Jessica and Robb once again for hosting us at .pdx last weekend and Leizl .quin , Estella and Rachel for some of the captures in this post 💞
xxAmanda
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