06/01/2017
Twin Flame / Future Significant Other (Maybe)
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My Dearest Gate Keeper:
The past few months have been interesting. From meeting you & starting to get to know you, which took a little bit of time. I told you that I looked for you, I'm sure you don't believe that still. But, I did. I set specific intentions that would ultimately lead me to the perfect partner, someone that I subconsciously already knew before I met them in this lifetime. I have the pages in my dream journal, a few messages & posts in spirituality groups to prove it.
I started writing in a notebook that would hold & tell all of these things to you, if we so happen to end up together. I stopped writing because, I'm honestly not sure if I should write it. At this point, it's up to you... though, I feel you've already made the decision & I'm either: waiting to hear it or waiting for you to remember. 🤷🏽♀️
I've attempted this "situationship" / "singlationship" s**t before. That s**t... not worth remembering, I would prefer to permanently forget it. Sometimes, I feel like I may be repeating the same mistakes I made then, including in my marriage. I'm trying a different approach to relationships, in general. Which is interesting. Everything about this is unconventional, kinda my thing if you hadn't noticed. It doesn't follow the regular or traditional standards, which is something that makes me feel like I'm still making the same mistakes. But, the things you do, whether you know if I notice them or not, are a constant confirmation of everything I saw in dreams & visions. At first, the visions included others but towards the end of last Summer, the fact that you always wanna "fight" made it ridiculously obvious. After that I knew. The dreams about lions (more specifically a "young lion"), the fact that you're a specific type of West Indian (I said I would never do that again but I wanted someone that would have something in common with my children that they could bond over), you're younger than me (to teach me more patience), not having any children of your own... Everything I saw or wanted in you was something meant to help my life better.
I used to be pi**ed at you. You came later than I feel like you should have. How we are, struggling through life to accomplish goals, is what I wanted before I got married & had children. I did it wrong. I wanted to accomplish all of my goals & travel, have fun & experience life with restrictions. With you, I don't even feel like I have any. It's easy to get lost in the time we spend together, even though those times are seemingly few & far between because... HUSTLE.
You have no idea how much you mean to me after such a short period of time. Even if we don't make it that far, I still love you.
Your Little 🐺
