05/30/2026
I don’t know what I’m doing. I just keep creating, hoping somebody sees what I’m trying to say through my art.
I don’t know where I’m going. I just know that I’ve finally started seeing things within myself that I didn’t want to see or believe were true. I’ve given my voice to people who took my words and actions in completely different directions than I intended. But I’ve been trying to look at my words and actions from other people’s perspectives and truly digest everything, because that’s the only way I know how to grow and become a better version of myself.
I admit that the way I express my emotions and communicate can be intense. I can’t make excuses for the things I’ve done. All I can do is create from those emotions and learn not to depend on someone else to fill the empty cup within me.
I may never see or speak to some of these people again, but I’m grateful for the time you gave me. I know it was probably far more difficult for you than I could ever imagine. Thank you for sharing a piece of your life with me. I will cherish the good memories, and I will learn from the pain, the mistakes, and the behaviors that hurt us both.
Even if you never see what I’m creating or what I’m becoming, just know that everything I make carries a piece of our time together. Through all of this, I’ve come to understand what I love, who I am, and how I create. Art has become the language I use to speak the thoughts and emotions I’ve struggled to say out loud.
I will keep moving forward. But I also hope that one day you’ll see what I’ve created and find it in your heart to forgive me for what happened, just as I have forgiven you.
My heart never closed its door. There will always be a place for you to step inside, create alongside me, and grow together if that is something you ever choose.
Until then, I’ll keep creating.
