12/21/2024
So (odd fun fact) I don't read my own books. Like start to finish, I've never read a single one. I mean, I already know the story (I wrote it), so read it for what?
But today, I picked up my book of affirmations to take some pictures and actually started flipping through the pages....and babyyyyy. I wrote the s**t out of those affirmations. Every page I read is something I needed to hear. Things that would have made 2024 a little smoother.
I have said OFTEN, 2024 has been the most challenging year of my existence, and yes; things are on the upswing, but Auntie had a TIME this year.
There were so many days I cried and asked God why me and even more days when I simply had NO motivation. Not to keep trying, not to start over, not to get out of bed, not to keep going ... In full transparency, if I didn't have a human that I refuse to traumatize because of my inability to deal with certain things, I probably wouldn't be here to type this message.
All of that to say, for 12 months I've searched for motivation and tips and tricks...I've paid for classes, watching a million YouTubes, followed a gazillion influencers, stopped eating, stopped drinking, stood on my head and spun around 7xs counterclockwise (well those last few things didnt happen, but you get my point. I looked EXTERNALLY for everything that was already in me....
Whole time, I wrote the motivation I needed 4 damn years ago.
