04/29/2026
Last week I took a ride with and did one of the things that has been on my bucket list for way too long. 🐎 🌊
After Tuxedo died, I did not want to even look at a horse again, much less ride one. Slowly, horses have once again become a large part of my life but now in a very different way.
I’ve become a witness to my own healing process as I find myself saying yes to not only riding, but also doing healing work alongside the horses. Its actually surprised me.
I don’t feel I’m making conscious decisions around what to do next, but rather, I’m allowing myself to be guided to the next new experience with horses. Whether I hop up on the back of a horse or stand beside one in healing partnership, I feel the presence of Tuxedo. It allows me to be closer to him, to remember all the things he taught me about riding and relating over the 13 years we had.
Tuxedo was really the only horse I knew and felt comfortable with so for me to jump on a horse that I don’t know in locations I’ve never been before feels expansive and it makes me feel alive again. I’ve missed feeling this exact kind of aliveness…a little adrenaline and a lot of love.
And as I’m sitting here writing this, I glanced up at the top of the page of my day planner where there was a quote and it said “You can overcome anything, if and only if you love something enough.” Lionel Messi
I think what I’m really overcoming is not the fear of riding again, but the fear that moving forward somehow meant leaving Tuxedo behind.
But what I’m beginning to understand is that loving him deeply is exactly what allows me to continue. Every new horse, every new trail, every healing session alongside these incredible animals carries pieces of what he taught me.
I’m not moving on from him. I’m moving forward with him woven into who I am becoming.
He gave me a relationship with horses that is now becoming the doorway into a new chapter of healing, connection, adventure and purpose.
I am planning a lot of beautiful new experiences with horses and sound healing and if your soul is ready please message me to join my list for upcoming adventures. 🤍🐴🙏🏻✨🔮