08/02/2022
MY CODEPENDENCY & MONEY STORY💰
My desire to step into more abundance namely MONEY, was birthed when I started to have the awareness of my struggle with money.
The thing is that I only started noticing this “scarcity” money mindset, when I was newly single on the year of my 30th birthday.
I had just broken up from a 7 year relationship, I was alone, heart broken, deeply unaware of my own trauma and using food & s*x to cope with my emotions.
The relationship I had been in was the hardest break up of my life, because I had no sense of self.
Therefore when I left, I literally felt that I didn’t have any purpose for living. He had been my purpose.
We can get so lost in relationships, that we lose ourselves. This is not healthy, this is codependency & it’s something I feel all humans can relate to.
This co-dependency was something that I also had little awareness around, especially when it came to money.
4 years down the line when I choose to get into another relationship, the same codependency piece played out.
I was attracting in the same type of relationship because there was a part within me, that still felt so unworthy of not being able to create the life I desired.
That relationship that played out was the biggest spiritual awakening of my souls existence.
Karmic ties & trauma bonding on another level that I nearly lost myself again
The domestic abuse that started happening 6 weeks into the relationship was something I never “saw” coming.
There had been many 🚩, but I choose to ignore.
The journey of being & surviving a domestic abusive relationship is something I am still healing & journeying through.
That relationship was the key to unlock myself & wake the f**k up
To stop tolerating such toxic, horrific, gas lighting, narcissistic abuse & own the part of me that was drowning in deep unworthiness
I left, I arrived on Melbournes door steps 3 days before covid and what unfolded for me in 2020 - 2022 has been the biggest awakening and healing of my life
I have sat with the deepest parts of my self these last few years In lockdown.
Deep grief, anger, hot rage, unworthiness, heart breaking sadness.
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