07/30/2021
For August I’m focused on Mental Health! Mine and yours! I condensed this to fit the image. Please read the whole story here in the description.
>>> I never thought I would be the one to say that I have mental health issues. I grew up thinking I’ll get married, buy a house and get pregnant and start a big family like I dreamed of. Well I got married to the love of my life and also gained a beautiful step daughter who means the world to me. But we still wanted more children. My doctor helped me and we were in the fertility program. My dreams were coming true. After almost a year with test after test. I had left each test saying the pain is going to be worth it in the end. March 2nd we had our big appointment, the final results. Sadly it didn’t go well. I can’t have kids. I was heart broken my dreams felt like they were gone. I’ll never know the feeling of someone growing inside of me. I have a baby shower, the first look of my baby growing. The feeling of pain as I give birth to a life. It even came to the point that I couldn’t even be around my best friend who was pregnant cause I was jealous. I wanted the pain, the sleepless nights, the dirty diapers I wanted it all. I had felt like I was being punished, like I didn’t deserve to have this. I had quit loving myself and looking after myself. I broke down and had to take time off work. I had to talk to get help from a phycologist. I’m a huge, I’ve got acne, I got black Circles under my eyes, i don’t think you know what your in for when asking to take photos of this. But ronda assured me that no mater what I am beautiful and that she love to do my photos. So with a pit in my stomach I said I might need this to start feel pretty again. Finally the day arrived. I was shaking, nervous, and feeling like I just made the biggest mistake of my life. Right away she commented how beautiful I was, and how stunning I look even before I had my hair and makeup done. Afterward Robyn made me feel like I was a plus size Model with my hair and makeup done. That moment I walked out in my outfit I never felt like a superstar. Ronda blew my confidence from a 2 all the way to a 10 +++ I felt like I was ready to take on the world. Even after the photos I just loved how great I felt. Ronda told me everything I needed to hear from someone else. I owned my body and I rocked the photo shoot. I even felt so good that I let myself all go. I was a free spirit. I felt like I was in control of my life and that this was the confidence booster that I needed. After I left I had prayed to the lord for bringing Ronda into my life. To give me such a gift specially in my time of need. She helped me learn to love myself again. She gave me that boost I needed. I am forever grateful for her helping me right when I reached my low point. Ronda thank you for helping me when I needed it the most you don’t know what this meant to me. 🥰
