08/29/2024
So many different versions of me…
That were all centred around my body and what I thought it looked like, what it should look like ❤️🩹
I remember looking back on the first picture and regretting choosing to wear that dress (huh?????)
I remember being postpartum with Willa wondering when the “weight was just going to fall off” since I was breastfeeding,
Now being postpartum with Josie,
I find myself prioritizing different aspects of my health,
And releasing the pressure of looking a certain way,
Because I look back on all of these pictures and wonder why I didn’t think the person in them was good enough ❤️🩹
I looked GREAT in all of these pictures but I clearly didn’t feel great,
I wasn’t eating enough,
Exercising everyday (I LOVED it and it made me feel good but it’s not healthy to do when you’re not eating enough protein, not resting enough, etc),
💨 🍃 all day, everyday,
Binge eating,
Constantly scrolling and consuming social media 📱,
The list goes on and on…
These days I find myself walking barefoot in the grass,
Getting outside EVERYDAY even on those cloudy, cold, rainy days ☁️
Eating more whole foods when I’m hungry instead of binging on snacks and sweets (this is very much still a work in process),
Letting myself relax and watch TV, even if it’s considered “unproductive”,
Going to sleep when I’m tired, even if it means missing out on “me” time,
Drinking high quality water 💧,
Attending church on Sundays and going to connect group every Tuesday ✝️
Making my iced coffee at home because it’s a small treat that makes me happy, even if it isn’t “healthy” ☕️
I share all of this to say,
Health doesn’t equal weight loss,
Health doesn’t mean being the same size you were 2, 3, 4 years ago,
Health to me is moderation,
It’s investing in your mental health the way you laser focus on your physical health,
So to sum this very all over the place post UP ⬇️
I’m tired of not enjoying moments in my life because I’m concerned with how I look,
I’m ready to start enjoying EVERY moment knowing I’m doing everything I can to FEEL my best!
A new era of motherhood and womanhood has arrived ✨
Who’s with me?????