09/09/2025
Big trips are wonderful opportunities for personal growth - to use the journey, and your response to any challenges / feelings / thoughts that pop up, as an experience to see what beliefs / patterns / programmes might still be holding you back in life. This trip was no different. I doubted my body would be strong enough or have the energy (let alone look good in padded cycle shorts). I worried that my camping inadequacies would reveal my inner Mr Bean. I had no idea how to achieve my usual elegance with just 40litres of packing space. And I feared that my friend would witness all of me at my worst (physically, mentally, emotionally) and cycle off into the distance never to be seen again. For this type of trip there is often no hiding whatever comes up. The other person gets to see you in all your glory! 😆
Of course I needn’t have worried at all. It was amazing and perfect in every way. And through it I learned that my body is much stronger than I give it credit for, that it is possible for me to camp without inflicting disaster, that it’s amazing how much you can pack into two paniers, and that even in my most tired moments I’m not such terrible company.
Most of all I learned that it’s perhaps time to let go of my ‘I’m not enough’ soundtrack that still plays too loudly in my head (just in time for this full moon and the invitation that it brings to release things that no longer serve you). To blow it a kiss goodbye and cycle down a new path with a new internal soundtrack - ‘i’m imperfect and enough’ (thank you Brené Brown) … because it’s our amazing imperfections that make us so beautifully unique … in all our amazing quirkiness and technicolour chaos, our unusual curves and physical awkwardness, and for me, all of this with the added endearing sprinkle of extreme clumsiness. Better to show up authentically imperfect and beautifully me, than a façade of what I feel I ought to be - unattainable perfection. How exhausting. And oh my, how liberating.
(Watch out trees!)
QHL 💛💫✨