29/05/2026
Not quite the birthday post I was planning..
Definitely not how I imagined walking into my second half of a century will look like.
Only a couple of months ago, I felt a sense of arrival. That beautiful, calm strength that comes with knowing who you are and what you want your life to look like. Not to brag, but pretty much most aspects of my life were just right.
Then s**t hit the fan in the most unexpected way.
And life just ...well it's kinda s**t.
Saying goodbye to one of my best friends. My rock.
The kindest man I know who always made me laugh...Who I thought I'd be walking this earth with for much longer... makes my heart ache so much it is unbearable.
I kept working, finding that is the one thing that provides the breathing space I need.
But I stepped away from social media. From marketing my business as I always do. How do you show up when authenticity is your main thing & you are kind of a private person? It just didn't feel right.
Today, when I'm supposed to celebrate my big girl birthday, it felt like the right day to just say:
This is tough.
Business isn't as usual but still my happy place. So yeah, I'm still doing my thing, I'm taking on clients & working with my existing ones with more gratitude than ever.
I'm not ill but I'm not ok.
I also know I will be ok again eventually.
My grief goes straight to shifting between 'pissed-off' mode to the calm that comes with numbness (My birthday treat will be at a rage room smashing some s**t up with a baseball bat)
And on the marketing front:
Social media marketing isn't what makes or breaks a business - definitely not established ones.
Stepping away from it for over a month did not stop the enquiries, and my business did not disappear from people's minds. . so if you are not feeling it, don't stress and certainly don't force it on yourself.
You doing what works for you comes first.
Happy fu***ng birthday to me.