09/07/2024
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Back in 2021, I contributed to this article in Freelance Corner about what to do when you fall sick as a freelancer (link at bottom of post). Ironically the sentence before my quote starts with ‘even those who do not suffer chronic conditions…’
When this article was published I had ‘only’ had a bad six months of pneumonia, Covid and DVT… Four years down the line, that combination has meddled with all of my pre-existing health conditions and left me with that ‘chronic’ condition.
This past year has been particularly challenging, as we come up to a first anniversary of the date when doctors asked me to put work down, and completely concentrate on my health. And so, reluctantly I put down my brand styling work and my mentoring and I resolved to work on my habits, diet, exercise and medications, and actually relax a little. Turns out, I’m not so good at the resting part…
I maintained a role in volunteering, as a way to monitor my work fitness and keep a social aspect to things, as I felt loosing that might lead to depression. What it actually lead to was complete and utter burn out. So now I have put it ALL down and am working on plans to relax and heal. I’ve slept more these past two weeks since I put this role down, than I have in a long time.
Why am I putting all this personal type stuff up on a business page you might ask??
Well, when I was asked to put the work down, I felt shame. I didn’t have a huge life threatening condition, like say, Cancer. Touch wood. And yet… I do have conditions that are considered as serious if not managed properly, and we are still working out how to best manage them.
I’ve worked since I was 14 - you know, that silly little paper round still counts - and I am hugely independent. A background example might be this:
At 15, when Intercranial Hypertension landed me in hospital for 2 weeks of my summer holidays, and then half days at school for the entirety of year 11 and my GCSEs, I still battled hard to earn all of my 10 A-C grade GCSEs and went on to do a physical month long expedition around Costa Rica less than a year after, and then 3 A Levels and an AS Level. So you see, resting on my laurels, is not something that comes easily.
I post this now, as I feel it is important for all aspects of a working life to be noted. I don’t think I am on my own in the wanting to power through health challenges, and life changes rather than taking a beat to rest. I bring more empathy to my clients and mentees, than I afford myself. Ensuring appropriate rest breaks and reasonable work hours are things I would adjust or question for others in the support of their overall goals, and it is something that I challenge myself with now.
I have had 2 weeks of sleep and rest - and more is needed - but I am now starting to look at what needs to be done. How I pick myself up from this point, without the shame. My beloved brand, Rabbit and Other Stories, currently sleeps. It needs to be reworked so that I run the business and not the other way around. I immerse myself deeply in the stories of the brands and business owners that I work with, and love that aspect, but I will be looking at redeveloping services that do not take quite so much of me with them. They have always been a collaborative experience with the business owner, so I am looking forwards to reworking what that looks like in business speak. Mentoring, also holds a big place in my business heart. I’ve really enjoyed my time helping other business owners in the governments ’Help to Grow’ scheme, and mentoring students/flourishing entrepreneurs through a couple of other programmes.
For now, maybe rest for me looks a lot like - sleep, time in my lovely Surrey Hills home and nature, perhaps a course or two that I am already signed up for and I have my eyes trained on delving into Fiona Humberstone's Summer School programme, when it arrives.
And perhaps, giving myself both grace and time to figure out the health stuff. That it is ok to take steps to advocate for that, because truly, if we don’t have our health, what do we have?
I want to thank some in my business network, who have been so kind and supportive when I admitted half year into work sign off, that I was feeling something of a business fraud, and not only encouraged me to still come to the meet-ups, but helped me to be less ashamed of where I found myself, and made allowances for me when I was symptomatic - anything from energy outages, to vocabulary that went for a wonder. Friends that make allowances for me that a trip into a London exhibit, now requires planning, in rest breaks and clearing of the diary for a couple of days either side of said visit, to rest and ensure optimal energy levels when out.
Rabbit will be back, I promise.
I want to invite you all to take a good long look at your habits and your health and ask yourself if they are working for you. I have first hand knowledge of how the body will take care of what you don’t think you need to, and it won’t necessarily do it in a way that is convenient for you.
Please stay in touch. The kettle at my local tea shop is always on if you’re in the area. And they do a mean cream tea.
Link as promised - https://freelancecorner.co.uk/what-to-do-when-you-fall-sick-as-a-freelancer/?