02/03/2025
Heading west makes me happier. There’s something about letting the M4 run out, the moment where the road thins and the land opens, where I know I’m about to be deep in the countryside and yet so close to the sea. To me, that’s perfection.
The other kind of perfection? Being seen.
As a neurodiverse adult, I don’t mind telling you how hard I find navigating friendships. I’ve often said that one of the cruelest things life has dealt me is this constant feeling that every other adult got a rulebook—one that I somehow missed. Every day, I move through the world without it, guessing at the unwritten rules, trying to find my own way through.
I’m often quiet in company. And then, my personality overflows—bigger than the moment, bordering on too much.
I’m laid-back, but in a way that can make me seem like I’ve not considered anything—because, most of the time, I haven’t. I’m impulsive and spontaneous, which, let’s be honest, isn’t exactly the personality mix most people look for when taking their kids away for a week.
But adulthood has given me two things.
Firstly, language. Acceptance. An understanding of who I am and what I need. And I’m good with that.
Secondly, and more importantly, it’s given me people—people who don’t just tolerate me, but see me. People who get it, who give it space, who celebrate it for what it is.
I now travel with people I can sit in silence with.
I have a friend who knows I can only handle people being physically close to me for short bursts,who will expertly steer me away from too much peopling with just a glance in my direction.
I have people who just are. And in turn, I get to be me.
And now there are kids—wild and determined, just like us—learning to navigate each other in the same way. Strong personalities. Fierce independence. A shared love of a good shop.
I rejoined the M4 as the sun set on Saturday night, heart full to the brim after a week of navigating calls and kids and endless travel.
Exhausted. Overjoyed. I did it.
Roll on the next one.