16/09/2025
https://www.goodnovel.com/book/Our-Little-Secret-In-Love-With-My-Professor_31001006502
110. Caught Between Desire and Fear
Edward
I wanted him.
Gods, how I wanted him.
The taste of Albert’s lips still lingered on my mouth, sweet and desperate, the kind of kiss that stripped every ounce of control from me. His body had been pliant under mine, warm and needy, his hands everywhere at once. When he looked at me with those wide, pleading eyes, I nearly lost myself.
And then I touched his stomach.
The bump was barely there, small enough to pass for overeating to anyone else. But to me, it was a reminder, a blazing truth: our pup was there. Alive. Growing. Fragile.
Cess’s words echoed in my head like a curse: He’s weak, Dad. His body isn’t strong enough. You have to be careful.
Careful. Gods, I was trying. But how was I supposed to be careful when Albert moaned my name like that? When he pulled at me, begged me, told me that he needed me?
It nearly broke me to pull away.
“Albert, stop.” My voice had cracked, strained, betraying the storm raging inside me.
His expression had been confusion first, then hurt, and then fury. He shoved at me, eyes flashing with something that stabbed straight through my heart.
“You think I’m weak,” he spat, his voice trembling with rage. “You think I’ll break if you touch me?”
I tried to tell him the truth… that I didn’t think he was weak, not at all. That I thought he was stronger than anyone I had ever met. But strength wasn’t the same as safety. Not when it came to this.
“I know you are strong, darling,” I told him, meaning every word. “But it’s not just about you anymore. Our pup… I can’t lose either of you. Not because I couldn’t control myself.”
I had thought that he would understand. That he would see my restraint for what it was: care. Protection. Love.
But he didn’t.
He bit his lip, his chest heaving, and whispered words that twisted like a blade in my chest.
“I want you, Edward. I need you. But if you keep pushing me away, I’ll start to believe that you don’t want me at all.”
I couldn’t even breathe. How could he think that? How could he believe, even for a second, that I didn’t want him… when every inch of me burned for him, when every heartbeat screamed his name?
But before I could answer, before I could make him understand, he sat up. His movements were quick, angry. His hands fumbled with his clothes, tugging them on with sharp, jerky motions.
“Albert…”
“Forget it,” he muttered, his tone flat and bitter, though I could hear the pain under it. “You’ve made yourself clear.”
“That’s not…” I tried again, but he cut me off with a sneer.
“Just… keep treating me like I’ll break if you breathe too hard.” He wouldn’t even look at me as he tugged his shirt over his head. “You say you want me, but then you act like I’m some fragile toy you’ll shatter if you touch. Maybe that’s all I’ll ever be to you.”
And then he was gone.
The door slammed behind him, the sound echoing like a crack across my ribs.
I sat there, stunned, staring at the empty space he had left behind.
What did I do wrong?
All I had wanted was to protect him. To make sure that he was safe, that our pup was safe. Was that a crime? Was it wrong to care too much?
My hands trembled as I pressed them to my face, dragging them down over my mouth. My whole body still throbbed with the need he had awakened in me. I could still feel his hands on my skin, his scent clinging to me, his voice whispering my name in that breathless, needy tone.
Gods, I wanted to go after him. To pin him against the wall and kiss him until he forgot his anger, and bury myself so deep inside him that neither of us would ever question what we meant to each other again.
But then Cess’s warning rose again, sharp and cold: He’s weak. He’s sick. Be careful.
What if he was right? What if one night of passion put too much strain on him, hurt the pup, or worse… what if it cost me both of them?
I shook my head violently, growling under my breath. The wolf inside me howled at my restraint, furious at being denied what was his. My body was in agony, aching for release, but I forced it back. I couldn’t let instinct rule me. Not this time.
Albert didn’t understand. He thought I was rejecting him, pushing him away. But all I wanted was to hold him tighter, to keep him safe from everything… even from me.
And yet, the look on his face when he left… gods, it gutted me.
I clenched my fists, my nails biting into my palms. What if I had just made things worse? What if, in trying to protect him, I had only managed to drive him away?
He didn’t know how close I was to breaking. How badly I wanted him. He didn’t see the way I fought myself every second we were together.
When he kissed me, I wanted nothing more than to lose myself in him, to let instinct and bond and love consume us both. And then when he touched me… gods, when he touched me, I nearly gave in. Nearly forgot every warning, every fear.
I wanted to make him mine, fully, completely.
But I couldn’t… not yet. Not until I was sure.
Albert didn’t know what it did to me, hearing him mutter under his breath like that. Seeing the sneer on his lips as he walked out, shoulders stiff, eyes refusing to meet mine. He thought I was pushing him away because I didn’t want him.
But the truth was, I wanted him too much.
I raked a hand through my hair, standing abruptly. Sitting here would only make it worse. I needed to do something. Needed to prove to him that I wasn’t rejecting him… I was merely protecting him.
If he hated me for it now, so be it. I could live with his anger. I couldn’t live with losing him.
I strode toward the door, determination hardening inside me. There was only one way to settle this.
I would take him to the healer.
Old Mother Inez had seen more pregnancies in this pack than I could count. She was older than the forest itself, her hair long and silver, her eyes sharp as hawk’s. She knew every sign of weakness, every risk, every hidden danger. If anyone could tell me whether Albert’s body could handle this… whether he was truly strong enough, it was her.
And if she told me that Albert was fine… if she told me there was no danger, no risk, no reason to hold back…
Then I would give Albert what he wanted.
What we both wanted.
I would make him mine so thoroughly that he would never again doubt how much I desired him. I would make sure that he couldn’t even get out of bed the next morning without remembering exactly who he belonged to.
That was my vow, as his mate, his Alpha, and the father of our pup.
I took a deep breath, squared my shoulders, and stepped into the hallway, following the trail of his scent.
This wasn’t over. Not by a long shot.
Our Little Secret: In Love With My Professor is a Werewolf novel written by Cate_Mae that covers Werewolf, Dominant, Mafia. Read full chapters of this story online on GoodNovel.
