25/11/2023
I have several arguments with myself. Most times to a point where I have severe cognitive dissonance. Naturally, I'm a critical thinker. I question the rationale behind everything. I believe in the divine. I don't believe in coincidences, I believe in synchronicities. So to me, I have to see the dots connect someway for stuff to make sense.
Not to appear sophisticated but it is who I am. It is a fundamental of my existence. My life is riddled with synchronicities. Owing to that fact, I am more of a laid-back guy.As in I know that there is a grand scheme of things.And I am here to be a channel through which the scheme actualizes itself.This demeanor most times gets confused for being disinterested or numb . Not that I am scared of being misunderstood but just so you don't get it twisted, I am unconventional. And I am anti- superficial and anti-scientific reductionism.
You see, I believe that I- and indeed everyone and every living thing - is an attempt of the life force to have a physical manifestation. Some people believe we are living in a matrix, a simulation. I don't believe so. I know so.Nature has a code. If you are keen, it'll show you it's archetypes. If you make your unconscious conscious, you start to see.You don't believe in things that you know for sure exist.
I know so because in my years of existence, I have been able to identify discernible patterns. For example, I have always attracted a specific type of people with distinct characters. I have always had similar experiences at specific periods of the year. I wouldn't call myself a psychic but I have also been able predict how things will end up accurately. Sometimes, down to the minute. I resonate with specific phenomena.Basically what I am trying to say is I have been able to make sense of ALL of my experiences thus far.
When you are like myself in contemporary society, you're going to disappoint people. It's inevitable. You are going to have to make difficult choices. Because your brain and your soul are not always going to be in sync. So I don't always take the 'logical' path. Sometimes it's the instinctive path. Other times, it's the spontaneous, chaotic middle path.