20/01/2025
Two years ago, I kind of retreated myself from the world. 🤣 Well, not out of fear but crowds just overwhelmed me, and I felt drained by hearing noises after being around people. To add up, I was confused about my career, do I need to rest to refresh, do I need to work? Go back to teaching, or go somewhere else again far from my family. I don't know 🤔 Plus another add up - I lost everything I have in a snap.
For two years, it is a very, very tough year. Life tested me, and so did my faith. To be honest, I am on the verge of giving up, but I did realize that even though this is a challenging two years, it is not a punishment but an opportunity for me to learn. One thing I learned is that - life keeps moving forward, whether I'm ready or not. ❤️
And so I said,
"This year (2025) is my year"
"I will love myself more"
"Accept things wholeheartedly"
"No space for negative thoughts"
"Let go of the past"
Yesterday, I decided to take back control and finally stepped outside (alone). It felt amazing to be productive again! It was so refreshing to get out of my room and actually do something. It is a rewarding feeling 🥰
I feel a sense of accomplishment and hope. It feels like I'm finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel ✨
Note: It's not late for me, I'm just starting again and there's nothing wrong with that ❤️☺️.