20/07/2025
Dear God,
I just want to say thank You.
Thank You for every single blessing You have given me, even when I didn’t ask, even when I didn’t feel deserving. Life has been heavy. I’ve been living each day with constant anxiety—worrying about my decisions, my work, my clients, my VA journey, and the problems in my family. And yet, despite everything, I am still here. Still breathing. Still fighting.
Not because I am strong, not because I have it all figured out, but because You are working in my life. It’s You, Lord. I know it’s all You. So I surrender everything to You. My thoughts, my fears, my plans—or lack of plans. You know my heart more than I do.
I look at my bills and wonder, "How?" But You always provide. Maybe not always in abundance, maybe not early—but always right on time. There’s always a budget, always a way. I face challenges that feel too big, but they are always solved, one way or another. You never leave me.
Since April, I’ve been asking myself, “Anong ginagawa ko sa buhay ko? Tama ba ‘to? What if mali ako? Hindi ko alam.” But You know. So I say it now, with all honesty and surrender: Ikaw na to, Lord. Please. Ayoko na. I don’t know what to do. But I know You do.
Since I resigned and burned out from the corporate world, I haven’t had the energy to apply elsewhere. I tried, but nothing pushes through. I don’t know if that’s You closing doors, or me being afraid. But You see what I can’t. You hear what I can’t express.
Since November 2024, I’ve been freelancing—sales agent, account manager, commission-based. No fixed income, just daily faith. And yet, every month, despite my worries and fears, I’ve never once been without what I needed. That’s You, God. All of it—every client, every payment, every small win. That’s You.
I’m scared. I’m uncertain. I don’t know what to pursue. My mental health feels like a battle no one else sees, but You do. You know me. And despite it all, You love me even more than I love myself.
So thank You—for every breath, every heartbeat, every blink, every thought. For the things I take for granted. For being the One constant when everything else feels shaky. I don’t know what tomorrow brings, but I trust that it’s still Your plan. Still Your will.
I love You, Lord.
Always,
Your daughter who is still learning to trust
