09/03/2026
I will win…not immediately…but definitely.
This is what I told myself every single day…that I felt lost, shattered, so far gone from my self and God. Leading up to this point.
I used to walk on stage and get recognized but feel nothing. Felt not loved, not proud, not worthy. I felt like a puppet.
When everyone thought I was “winning” for the last 4 years of my life, in my previous company… I was losing more than anyone could ever imagine. The money was there. But everything else was gone.
I was saying no to god for a very long time. And what I got for it was an empty soul.
These last 365 days. I said yes to God in every way you can think of. It lead me to places way outside of my comfort zone. But it lead me to the place of freedom, healing, unbelievable growth, a place of true love, to peace. To an opportunity that would turn me into the best version of myself. A version at one point in my life I didn’t think I deserved to become.
Saying yes was scary. But saying no was going to result in a big WHAT IF. A what IF that would weigh so heavy on my soul for the rest of my life. And I couldn’t bear going on with my life the way I was. I was destroying myself.
I knew I would rather be terrified and go where God is calling me, than to stay where he is not.
To have walked on this stage as the second highest earner in the entire company, it is not about the rank. Or the income. It is about how for the first time In my life I truly believe and felt right then and there during this recognition. I have it all now.
I am a whole person. I am happy. I am proud. I am healthy. I am loved. I am respected. I am valued. I have a real family. I am worthy. I am financially, mentally, emotionally, physically the best I have ever been in my life.
Today I am truly winning.
If someone says you cannot have it all. I promise you. You can. ❤️
