20/03/2018
Message of the day
The scary thing about time is, you dont see it. And by the time it creeps up on you, its too late for you to make an u-turn.
The dogs you assumed will be there to wait for you to go home to.
The parents/grandparents you assumed will always be there to prepare meals for you, or to go out together on family day.
The friends/lovers you assumed will always be there to cover your ass, love you unconditionally.
And one day.
You look at these animals/people again, and you realised there are so many things you missed out on.
You dont remember since when your dogs spent longer hours sleeping, or since when her legs weakened and you had to help her move around. You dont remember since when they stopped greeting you by the door but instead lay on the floor looking at you, wagging their tails.
You dont remember since when your grandma forgot how to cook because of her dementia, or since when your other grandma slowed down and needed a walking stick. You dont remember since when your mum had so many white hair, or since when your dad looked so old.
You dont remember since when your friends started talking about topics that you could no longer join, or since when meeting up became so difficult because everyones busy. You dont remember since when you became so trusting to someone that you forgot yourself, or since when you started giving up all your dreams and passion.
The drinks you used to make for yourself became a thing of the past.
The coffees you used to sit and enjoy became a must from a tiring day.
The texts that used to be long became short.
The talks that used to be filled with jokes and rubbish became complaints about jobs and bills and schedule.
You lost your soul and eventually thinks of "if only".