01/19/2021
🌻Mama: on IG🌻
“Two weeks ago, 48 hours after being discharged from Labor & Delivery, and the day before my birthday, I was readmitted into the hospital for postpartum hemorrhaging. The doctors performed a quick procedure to remove the blood from my uterus, but unfortunately soon after my condition quickly declined.
On my birthday, the morning of Dec 30th, after having to advocate for myself relentlessly to my OBGYN, I was finally transferred to the ICU where they discovered that they had not stopped the source of the bleeding in my uterus. All they knew was that I was losing a lot of blood, really fast. I ended up having to undergo countless procedures, receive 8 liters of blood through a blood transfusion, get intubated, breathe through an oxygen tube and the list goes on & on. I even remember waking up from sedation to hear a nurse say “I really hope she pulls through & makes it.”
This was by far the most traumatizing thing I’ve ever had to endure. I remember waking up a few times before, during & after procedures & getting glimpses of what was happening. All I kept praying and saying was “Lord, please don’t let me die. Please just let me raise my kids. They’re just babies, I can’t leave them motherless.” Although my body was extremely weak & I felt like I was knocking on deaths door, I kept praying. I kept trying to remind myself that my faith doesn’t just serve me when things are going good, I have to rely on God even when things look dark & unpromising because He’s always faithful. And faithful He was!
A few days ago, I walked out of the very hospital I almost died in. Although I’m still recovering, I can’t help but praise God for never leaving my side. He is so good & faithful.
I also want to take this moment to remind black people, and especially black women, to never stop advocating for yourselves in hospitals. The sad truth is, racism extends far beyond our judicial system. Listen to your body, and SPEAK UP! Lord knows where I would be right now if both Dre & I hadn’t.
Lastly, thank you to everyone who reached out and/or prayed for me during this trying time. It didn’t go unnoticed, it was felt & it means the world to me and my family.”