01/13/2021
When I was a teenager, I couldn’t talk to anyone, particularly strangers.
I was so painfully shy that when someone would talk to me, I wondered why they were speaking to me. I questioned it. I was homeschooled for 8 years, and for a little while I went to a homeschooling program and there was this guy I liked there. One day, he asked me to come sit with him and his group. Not knowing what to say to him, I said, “You actually want me to sit with you?”
He told me to just forget it and he walked away from me. I couldn’t understand then that what I’d said had hurt him. I was being earnest, but coming off as rude.
Anytime someone asked me something about myself, I wondered why they were interested. I didn’t think I had anything remotely useful to offer anyone else. I felt like a boring person who lived in my own head 24/7.
As you can imagine, this made it tough to make friends.
One thing that helped change my perspective was a trip with my godfather when I was 15. We were staying at this hotel and went to sit in the whirlpool bath. There was a stranger there who we didn’t know, and my godfather started talking to him. I sat quietly observing. He demonstrated what it was like to ask someone questions, to take an interest in someone else.
It baffled me at first. It was like a magic trick. I couldn’t believe how easily he could just talk to people.
He tried to teach me that taking an interest in others was a way to get to know them better, ultimately to build community.
He’s one of the many people I have to thank on my introvert journey, because he showed me the value of connection. We’re all on different stages of our journeys, and if you’re feeling stuck and frustrated on your journey, keep going.
Find someone you trust to show you how to start to make those connections either in your personal life or your business.
I thought I’d never make it out of my own head, but I did. If you get stuck in yours too, feel free to DM me. You’re not alone on your journey.