07/01/2024
Yes, this is a cleaning page, and you are seeing a picture of a smoothie. However, this smoothie symbolizes an important milestone and I would like to share that with you.
For a vast majority of my life, I lived my life simply to survive. I had little ambition and learned that the only way to be safe, was to be who other people wanted me to be. Between parents, friends, family members, and a spouse, I only knew their version of me.
But in 2015/16 I decided I didn't want to be those versions of me anymore, I wanted to discover the real me, the me who God put on this Earth. What kind of clothes does she wear? How does she style her hair? What kind of foods does she like? What kind of hobbies does she like to do? What brings her joy? What makes her belly laugh? What makes her sad or angry? Who is the real me?
The journey really started in 2012, but in 2015 the Universe nudged me to put into motion the biggest upheavals of my life. It wasn't graceful on my part, I made mistakes, but I also didn't give up. I had strangers around me who felt more like family than my own family did. Strangers who love me and care for me unconditionally.
And I learned that when you have that kind of love, it creates space for you to start uncovering who you really are, and who you can be.
Fast forward to 2022 when I moved back to the USA after an 11 year hiatus in Australia, I found myself alone in a state I had never been in, with weather I had never experienced. Just me, my cat Shifty, and 2 suitcases. Luckily I started working full time immediately.
I had a completely new and fresh start, but I was still living to survive. Paycheck to paycheck, barely scraping by at times. I felt lost, unable to understand what I was doing here in Wyoming. When I was at my lowest point financially, I got a 2nd job as a professional cleaner for a company. Between both my full time job and that one, I was working physically demanding 15 hour days, most weekdays.
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