05/12/2026
This is so much more than just a weighted blanket.
This is a symbol of how much I am loved. Not because of the item itself honestly. Not even because of the nervous system relief I get from it either.
But because many years ago during COVID my amazing husband bought this for me, when mentally I was at a super low point.
I was at the height of a custody battle that felt more like a one sided war than anything that considered the best interest of our kids. On top of struggles our kids faced mentally as well. During this time I was having severe panic attacks over EVERYTHING.
My husband heard me say I wanted to see if a weighted blanket would possibly help, and he went and bought me one. He heard me, and he helped. It was and still is something that I am getting used to.
This blanket today just like countless times before was used as an act of love. My husband heard a need, and responded with love and help.
It's been a long week already as far as socializing goes. 6 calls just yesterday for work, 3 of those were video meetings. I know it may not sound like a lot, but as an Autistic Business Owner I definitely did not pace myself for that one lol. Not to mention even more this week as it's only Tuesday..
So since my body is dysregulated so is my body temperature. I've been freezing like we were in the middle of Snowmageddon in January.. it's not even cold in my house the thermostat downstairs says 70, and the thermostat in my youngest child's room which is the coldest room in the house says 73. It is by no means cold.
But here I am goose bumps, triggering a Raynaud's reaction, and shivering like I am attempting a polar plunge. So I mention before Chris goes do a landscaping job, that I hate being so cold I have a meeting at 10, so I can't use a bath to warm up until after, I am too cold to grab my weighted blanket, and too cold to grab pants. The pants and weighted blanket were at the bottom of the bed, so truly I didn't have to go far, my body is just being weird.
He goes do you want me to grab it?
Instantly, I felt guilty, like I was inconveniencing him, and like I was holding him up, and putting more of a burden on him.. I honestly don't know why I had this reaction, because Chris does not enforce those feelings. You'll see here shortly.
I said I don't know. And he goes well I'll just make this easy he grabbed my weighted blanket and tossed it to me. He even gave it to me in a way that the tag would be at the bottom once I straightened it out.
I like the weighted blanket because it holds in heat well. But it isn't really working at the moment.. I'm truly hoping that I'm not getting sick. That would honestly be my luck, because my immune system sucks.
S I'm going to lay here and shiver under a weighted blanket, and a comforter, and be grateful for how much I am loved.
I will never claim to have the perfect marriage, but I have an incredible husband who loves me so much. These little gestures always speak so loudly. CLC wouldn't be where we are without Chris always being there reminding me that I can kick ass, and that he's here to cheer me on the whole way.
What's something that was a little gesture but had a big impact on you recently? What feelings came up for you?
Let's start our day with some positivity in the comments!
