05/22/2023
LIFE UPDATE ALERT! (Yes, it is lengthy.) Usually, I would be going live for the Monday Morning Mindful Moment, but so much has happened that I felt led to briefly share with my followers/supporters.
I made 2 full weeks of a complete water fast and started reintroducing whole foods. About a week into my journey, I shared that I broke out with a condition referred to as keto rash. I am taking antibiotics and applying cream my dermatologist recommended to help fade the hyperpigmentation. I am embarrassed and trying my best to find the beauty in this situation.
I started feeling ill Friday before last and ended up going to the ER. A very long story short, I was admitted due to a bowel obstruction and an abdominal hernia that needed repair. The doctor told me had they not caught what was going on, my morbidity rate would have greatly increased. I spent Mother’s Day in the hospital, unable to see my kids because they are too young to visit the floor I was on. I had the surgery last Monday and was released after 5 days of hospitalization. The pain, swelling, and discomfort of it all is hard to bear and I am trying my best to view the pain as productive.
I won’t pretend that I understand all of this. I won’t pretend that this is an easy process. I won’t pretend that I understand why this is happening. But, I will say that through many tears, feeling alone despite having friends and family support, and more questions than answers, I choose to believe that God has a plan and purpose. I choose to believe that despite how I feel and what it looks like, God is trustworthy.
Jesus Calling reminded me this morning that, “When things don’t go as you would like, accept the situation immediately. If you indulge in feelings of regret, they can easily spill over the line into resentment. Remember that I am sovereign over your circumstances and humble yourself under My mighty hand. Rejoice in what I am doing in your life, even though it is beyond your understanding.”
So, in a space called “beyond my understanding”, I am taking a sabbatical to heal, regroup, and hear from the Lord. If the Lord says the same, I will return in the fall with new content and accept bookings for speaking engagements.
Please remember me as you pray. This too MUST pass in the mighty name of Jesus! 🙌🏾