08/19/2025
I’ve been on a short vacation, visiting with family and friends back in New England. And in the letting go of the daily grind, I’ve noticed how much my body knows and notices.
The way my shoulders dropped the moment my husband said, “I’ve got you.”
The way I exhaled deeper when I heard the birds singing while my feet touched the sand.
The way my chest softened when family members I love truly saw me.
Sometimes I forget I’m an animal.
That beneath the coach, the calendar, the conversations about transformation… there’s a creature who craves touch, sunlight, deep rest. (I’m coming back to you, Yoga Nidra. 😊)
A being that purrs, sighs, tightens, trembles.
A being that remembers what safety feels like. What love smells like. That I belong just because I exist.
This poem by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer brought me right back to that knowing:
Involuntary
I love the small sounds of pleasure
people make when taking the first
sip of coffee, or when sitting at last
after standing for hours. That small
hum of delight that escapes the lips
when someone presses a thumb
into the arch of our foot and makes
small circles on the sole. That sigh
that flies out when we step into shade
on a relentlessly sunny day. Bless these
moments when the mind can’t outbrain
the small animal living inside us, when
our feral self slips through the cage
of decorum and groans or purrs
or moans or gasps and reminds us
beneath all our fancy syntax and
pretty words, we’re creatures,
and the body is so much more
than a carrier for the intellect.
Every roar and crow, hiss and howl,
murmur and whimper and trill
is a primitive prayer, an involuntary
thank you for being granted
a body that can slip into warm and
soapy water, that can press its lips
to another’s soft lips, that can inhale
the perfume of rain after months of drought,
that can curl into the warmth of another
and through scent and touch know
it is safe, it is loved, it is it is home.
—Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer