05/12/2018
BLUR
Monologue by Mike Williams
I did everything I could, to be in Hollywood; I mean Everything! They told me to go to school and get some skills. [conceited] Now do it looks like I need a paper to certify my talent? I don’t think so. But the question at hand is; why do I, want to be in Hollywood? Is it because of my current circumstances?
Wait-a-minute, how did I get to this thought process anyway? And why is it, I want to be somewhere I’ve never been before. I don’t know what the hell it’s like to be IN Hollywood, just the accolades that come with it. Like the things I've seen on TV, [excited] cars, house, jewelry; oh hell yeah, my favorite, a private jets. Those are the THINGS I want, you know, the THINGS that takes me away from… [pause] [sad] the THINGS that takes me away from poverty. It’s not easy living in poverty man, s**t is rough out here. Damn!
I guess what I’m trying to say is, [pause] [angry] I’m tired of suffering. I’m tired of Searching for funds to pay my bills every month. E-v-e-r-y- t-i-m-e- I turn on the TV, or surf the internet, all I see is people like me, living a lifestyle like the rich-and-famous... because of what? their talent? What the HELL is going on here, uh! [angrier] I GOT TALENT TOO! You ain’t saying nothin’ brah! Uh! I know you hear me talking! I can rap, I can sing, I look good, and I can act my ass off. But yet and still I’m tracing dreams? I’m tired of Drawing images in my head to be like them! What the HELL is going on here!
Trying to be a superstar like my peers... Like I don’t have, my own dreams! [breathing heavy], [pause], [calm] Maybe that’s the problem, I’m trying to be like my peers.
[intense whisper] Everything I SEE, I watch, and everything I HEAR, I listen; I know for a fact my brain is hacked, [pause] it got my mind playing tricks on me. [idea] Maybe, I should try it the other way around, okay!… [thinking] [resolve] From now on, everything I WATCH, I will see it for what it is and THEN, analyze my thoughts. And everything I LISTEN to, I will hear what’s truly being said. And THEN, analyze my feelings.
[focus] No more tracing dreams, [confidence] it’s time to live my reality. Yeah, I got this… From now on, it’s about me. [Shout] from this moment forward, it’s about me and my own dreams, not theirs, mines. okay! [pause] [at peace]... it's about me. [victory] CLEARED