06/06/2026
Let’s get real, I NEVER want to play crazy.
I learned recently that a lot of people really do. It’s just not in me, that instinct.
This lesson really was brought home the last 2 mos. Yet again, I found myself on the receiving end of betrayal.
I had to decide what my character was going to ‘speak’ during the transition time.
For me, it needed to exude integrity, which is my intention always. But underneath the surface was grief and rage. The horses and this program has taught me how to really sit with that, hold it and process it so I don’t ‘bleed’ on other people. I did that for 8 weeks.
This video made me chuckle - only a rare few near me know what happened the last two months. And they {all} are my heart ❤️.
They held space for me, supported me and walked me to my new space with the deepest respect and love. THAT was my takeaway.
But for those that ‘play crazy’ with me and think they can walk all over my deeply generous and loving heart; I have the ability to bring it when I need to. And I did, Again. For this wasn’t the first time. It was the 3rd.
I don’t WANT to be mean. It’s not in my nature AT ALL. But if you f**k with me at a deep level of betrayal- willingly and with no remorse- I will bring it back to your doorstop full force at the appropriate time and never look back. And I won’t feel bad about it.
(Does it hurt me deeply and take parts of my heart in the process - absolutely)
The horses taught me you have to be able to access the ‘darkness’ to be able to pull it out when necessary; and then put it away *knowing it’s not who you truly are.
Each time I have to do it, I have more beings around me supporting me with ❤️and I’m so grateful. In the beginning I had to do it alone.
Serious post but a lighthearted video.
Such is f**king life too!!!
The light and the dark 😘😜
