07/24/2017
This beautiful lady is my half sister (although we didn't know one another existed half our lives), it was a gift to take her picture in the last stretch of her pregnancy. The way I look at a new mother now is definitely different since becoming one myself. I know there is nothing you can say that will prepare her, you learn on the job, and that every mothers journey is different but there exists a journey for every mother none the less. To witness a woman on the precipice of entering a moment that ends in no other way than with dramatic change is so moving to me. Motherhood changes you, not in a good or bad way, but I don't think you can emerge the same person you were before. Then I think of all the beautiful and trying moments that lie ahead and my heart fills with a sense of knowing love and understanding. Remembering those first precious moments just studying that little face and finally seeing who was kicking you for all those months. The first moment you make eye contact. Then remembering those hard parts. Those nights that lie ahead...those long, long, long, nights when you feel you never really went to sleep during those tedious repetitive 3 hours stretches between feedings. The feeling of helplessness as you do not understand why your baby is crying: gas, is she hungry, is she sick, does she not like me? Knowing there is a breaking point we all have, and you will find where yours is during this ride, when you find it take a moment to breathe. Know this momma to be, you don't need to know much because you will grow and learn alongside your little one, and while some days are harder than others...it will all be okay.