11/07/2025
I could hear my tone- and didn’t like it. So I paused and told my teen-
“Hey, I’m at a boil, I can hear my tone, it’s not about you. I just need to spend some time outside to lower the temp.”
I spent the next four hours with my version of “ice” to cool down: a pickaxe, shovel, and rake, knocking out the second-to-last digging project here at BMK before the ground freezes solid.
More importantly, aside from checking in here and there (and grabbing candy when low blood sugar hit), I stayed in my self-imposed time-out until I came down—from a boil to a simmer to something close to room temp.
It doesn’t usually take me long to cool off, and I don’t hit that level often—but this time, I did. It had been a day stacked on a week, topped off with a month.
But after four hours of shoveling dirt and rock, swinging my favorite pickaxe, and marveling for the 389 millionth time at how little a bag of mulch covers, I went inside grounded in that way only physical exertion can give and I got the sweet satisfaction of checking something off my fall list.
Nothing that had gotten me to the boil had been solved. The weight of it all was still there. But it was, for the time being, a load I could carry.
For you, “ice” might look like listening to music, reading a few pages, taking a longer-than-normal shower, twenty push-ups, or a call to your best friend.
There’s a quote often attributed to Viktor Frankl:
Between stimulus and response, there is a space. In that space is our power to choose.
That’s what those four hours gave me—space and enough room to respond instead of react.
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