10/17/2021
Beautiful and so true!
When you are envisioning your best birth, is there vomiting? When you think “perfect unmedicated birth” are you standing in the shower, enjoying the hot water, having contractions and pooping on the floor? When you picture yourself in the birth pool just before you start to push your baby into the world, are you crying and begging God to help you while telling baby to just please come out because you can’t do it anymore? When you imagine how your homebirth will go, are you so sleep deprived and exhausted that you “pass out” after each contraction and can barely respond to the people around you in between? When you push your baby out in your best natural birth experience are begging someone to make it stop because “it just hurts so bad!” Natural unmedicated childbirth is not a Disney cruise ship experience. You don’t just take a Dramamine and have a great time. You can have the beautiful birth environment all decorated with the string lights and the perfect music and your affirmations and be screaming “oh my God I just want to die!” as you wait for the next contraction to push your baby out. Birth is HARD. Birth is messy. Birth is unpredictable. Birth pulls you into a primal existence and brings you to end of yourself. Labor and Birth may mean you find yourself sitting on the toilet, rocking back and forth, ugly crying with snot running down your face, while you’re dry heaving and having a contraction while your partner holds your hand, the doula holds a cool cloth on your head and the midwife holds the puke bowl. And they’re all telling you “you’re doing great sweetie!”Sounds terrible doesn’t it? But that’s the beauty of birth. It’s the hard and messy and the unpredictable that brings the sleep deprived, primal surrender that allows us to step into ourselves and out of ourselves to bring our babies into the world. It’s a deep accepting of the journey for all that it is and sometimes, there’s vomiting.