11/19/2021
Hi loves! So I did a Full Moon tarot spread this morning around 5am, a little later than I wanted but hey! It still works! hehe
1.) What kind of karmic or ancestral pattern is ready to be released?
-9 of Wands reversed-
Fighting losing battles. Looking at this card this morning make me feel tired. Im not sure about ancestors since I haven't done a ton of ancestral work, but as far as karmic bonds, I've always felt that it was imbedded into my coding that I fight everything and fix everything. I can see that other people don't have a problem setting boundaries, but it's always been such a struggle for me. I often find myself carrying things not meant for me. From a young age I have felt I was always put in that position. It's probably why nowI have a passion for helping people make changes for the better in their own lives, but I often ignore my own needs.
2.)How am i ready to evolve?
-5 of Pentacles-
Definitely an obvious hint to the fact that in the past I have always been terrible with money and finacnes. Money has never mattered to me in the way I feel that I needed to save save save, but now as I'm getting older I'm realizing how important it is to keep track of finances and pay CLOSE attention to them, how many missed opportunities and ways Ive been financially irrisponsible in the past. I realize that I've been a slave to money…or more importantly my work/career choices. My life run by money, failing to rise to the challenge every time.
A constant lesson that life has thrown at me and im unable to retain. But latley I've felt like its just time to focus and figure it out instead of avoiding or saying I don't care about money, because really it's a part of life that we all have to deal with. I’ve been kind of dreading the thought, but seeing this card heps me embrace that change that I know is inevatable, if I want to live a full life.
3.) What must Ilisten to at this time?
-10 of Swords reversed-
-Listen to what I'm telling myself VS what I'm actually feeling, not being honest with myself. Not speaking my truths…which rings so true for me at this moment because I’ve recently moved, and I’m in a place where I feel that I have to hide a LOT of who I am. I’m not acting they way I would want if I felt truly free and in charge of my own life.
This makes me think of when someone asks me to something when i dont want to but my natural reaction is to be like “YES! i can do that I definitely want to, if it makes your life easier, I can handle it.” When really i dont want to i just cant think of a reason to say no. And thats every day.
4.) What can I conciously let go of?
-the tower reversed-
To stop stopping the transformation, this to me is a refulsal to break some sort of barrier. Something that im refusing to let happen so that i can rebuild into something better. I feel like the change I want to bring into my life right now is so big, that it would tear some other parts of my life down. I’m honestly very scared for that to happen, but seeing this spread kind of confirms everything that ive been thinking and all of my anxiety about my life right now, its because its about to transform, and the tower is such a powerful trasnformation card that I dont want to resist it!☺️
Thank you for coming on my journey with me!
-TarotDactyl
Credits: I found the spread on Insta from card.clarity.tarot, and the spread itself by biddytarot
