05/18/2024
The last year and a half has been the most confusing lonely of my life. Nothing was certain except that there was a purpose for testing me to that extreme to those depths and regardless what onlookers may think I feel like a success. Like I could have gone downhill and given up but I did not. I've been tested and tested without incentive or reward just to see the merit of my soul and well here I am. Still without so many of you. Finally somewhere with people I call family, feel safe, and can finally decompress and just once again rise above my own fears and limitations. So, I wish I could have had a team or family through this but considering who and where I was when I lost Dyson and who and where I am now I'm proud of me and someday when he's older I know he will be too.
Thank you to those who either treated me with care or at least did not do more harm. I was like a babe through most of this ever trusting and I can honestly say even against their darker nature's people I encountered as a whole are or could be considered good people. This is a great relief, for I feared the loss of so many souls I now know are worthy of aid, and faith, and reassurance.
No, we are not perfect but we are capable of change and so many I encountered said merely lead us, show us, we want that too. Much to my relief (ever the bleeding heart)
There's a war for souls and lives it's been going on you're aware of that. These methods we've relied on so long are to become the faithless downfall. Not you my children, mothers fathers sisters brothers men women all are capable of mercy and guidance who heed the calling and word of God.
Change is coming, hope is alive. Be the change you want to see. Change doesn't happen overnight so strive to achieve sobriety so that the weak may sink farther into their despair.
An addict myself most of my life I understand wanting to give up but slipping doesn't strike you out. Do less, share less, offer companionship and compassion and let the love of community and a common goal unite those who for so long thought me absent.
Overcome addiction, rise up fight back for oneself, ones family, for one way a path to love and enlightenment. That's where happiness awaits...
Let go of the crimes and sins of the past yours and those done to you free yourself from the shackles of resentment and pain.
Freedom in community and hope and faith in every life you touch in a positive way and can bring peace and love to.
You don't need to be a soldier or wealthy or known for me to know your worth, your fights, achievements and true hearts.
God is LOVE love one another love thyself and share the love in you all around you. Those you reach will mirror that, those who don't quickly can be identified and no further time be wasted.
Your hearts have the ability to discern the difference now so trust your heart and live the life you deserve and want not holding dead weight any longer.
Peace be with you my children, hold the faith in the mother and thy selves.
Xoxox~Serafina
