05/06/2022
I’m about to get real as f**k here 👇🏻
I don’t know about you guys, but this mercury retrograde has me all kinds of fked up 👀
I have felt myself being more negative than ever
comparing myself to others & to where I think I should be
feeling guilt and shame around not playing big, being inconsistent and not truly being authentic with sharing things I want to
I have completely abandoned the things that bring my joy, clarity, composure
And have found myself retreating and choosing to play it safe
Not working on certain projects because I feel like an imposter, even though I’ve been doing this work for 11 years
Being triggered by other peoples wins, seeing them as a mirror of where I SHOULD be and COULD be if I simply did *insert unrealistic comparison here*
I’ve never been one to be effected by what I assume to be the opinions of others, but lately I’ve felt it deeper than ever
So what am I going to do to get out of this space?
- show up for myself and my routines (more self care, meditation, working out, journalling, learning)
- unfollow people who encourage my comparisonitis
- sit with myself, and the emotions that are coming up for me
- use this as an opportunity to continue my healing & inner work
- speak kindly to myself and remind myself of the things I’m grateful for
Because the reality is;
i am growing, evolving, expanding
even on the days, I think I am not 💛
PHOTO; throwback to Bali, being in the middle of the jungle in the pouring rain, completely in the moment and feeling like the rain was washing away my worrys 🥺✈️