26/08/2026
F O U R Y E A R S
This year feels harder.
Perhaps because so much has happened in life, so much has changed, so much I have been wanting to share and the person I wanted to share it with is not here.
Mummy, how has it been 4 years? I feel confused, guilty, sad that this is reality.
BUT, To say I would want to change it would be a lie, of course having you here would be the best feeling, but because you left, I became the version I am today. I am strong, resilient, focused and writing new chapters of my story each day. Each day is filled with laughter and love and intention. You left a gap, a hole, and even though you cannot ever be replaced the gap is getting smaller because of the love I have around me.
I miss you like crazy, I wish you could meet me now and meet the people in my life that mean so much and who love me for this version of me that I became after you left.
I have spent a long time looking through photos, reading through messages and I am sad but I hold no regret or fears that I am living life that would make you smile.
I hope you are watching us, we still look up at the night sky looking for the biggest shiniest star and say yup there’s YaiYai.
Another milestone. Another year.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️